I have this crazy dream of being a woman people respect because she respects people. Some one whom everyone knows because she's gotten to know everyone. A woman who takes time for the important things but always makes time for the little things. A woman that invests in dreams and the people chasing after them. Someone whose happiness rings through the streets and echos off hearts like the sound of a street player's saxophone.
Can I be who I want to be without having to prove it to everyone?
I just recently returned to Facebook after deleting my account over a year ago. My purpose for returning was to simply reconnect with friends in other states and countries but also to hopefully get plugged in more with the people I'm around on a regular basis. You'd be amazed at how left out one can be if you're the only one out of 50 people that requires a text invitation to a party.
But, as I just spent the last hour doing, all I desire is for people to see me the way I want to be seen. The girl who reads Sherlock Holmes and has a dog she loves. I literally think to myself, "How much of myself can I convey without making a list"? I sit here even now thinking of how I could re-post all my old pictures with my 4-h projects and friends and all the animals I worked with. All my favorite quotes but only the ones that are legitimately funny or from a book that I take pride in reading.
What kind of person does that make me?
Repeatedly checking for a 'like' or a re-pin or a comment. It makes me a busy-body and not the good kind. It's hovering all over everything with the intent for the best out come for me. Everyone has to see me for who I want to be, not who I am. Or maybe who I am but only the entertaining parts. What is with that?! That's no life! That's self-centered-ness topped with a huge dollop of people-pleaser! If you're living a life worth much, your Facebook status won't be the first thing to show it in all its splendor. Your LIFE will speak for itself, don't you think?
On a very small scale, say you have on your profile that you love dogs. Well, if you honestly love dogs, it won't be news to anyone. People who know you would be able to say, "Oh, Erika LOVES dogs! She plays with Rover every time she comes over." To my knowledge, most people wouldn't refer to your "interests" tab as a character reference.
I have big dreams of being a woman. A real woman. One who doesn't need to tweet to show her humor and wit.
